Category Archives: My Life

Life isn’t perfect, it’s hard.

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Sometimes it gets very difficult and stressful, I doubt and question myself so much, or the boys drive me so insane that I wish they’d be older so I could just have a moment to regroup and not worry about a crying baby 2 seconds later because his brother did something he didn’t like. I swear the list could probably go on for a while; I stress over almost everything when it comes to being a good wife and mom. Asking myself if it’s good enough? Am I doing a good job? 

My house seems to be constantly a mess even after vacuuming it 3 times or picking up scattered toys for what feels like the hundredth time. Dishes stacking up during the day only to get almost all the way done before dinner when more get stacked on. And laundry….well never mind, you get the point. 

But then I take a deep breath and realize my boys are only going to be this age once, and that this stage of “needing mommy every 2 seconds” is not going to last forever! The day will come (sooner than I really want  it to) when they won’t need me hardly anymore, when they won’t want those extra hugs and kisses or for me to tuck them in or rock them to sleep while I sing songs. And My husband won’t need the encouragement for today, tomorrow. Once today is over there’s no doing it over. You can’t say “well I meant to..yesterday.” or put it off by saying  “I can do that tomorrow.” When it comes to family. You never know what the day will hold. 

Yes keeping a clean house is good, but it will always be there, I just have to try my best and except it. I’d rather give my husband and children the extra attention than the house and miss a treasured  moment with them. 

I’m not perfect, I wish I was; I get cranky,  emotional- very emotional- irritated, stressed, & short tempered,  (like today for example), and just want to have a day get over with ASAP, or leave kids with daddy for few just to be free from little hands clawing me almost nonstop. But then there are those days when I would not trade this life for anything in the world and I know that even though times get tough I’m still greatly blessed and I love my family with all my heart no matter what. 

I’ve just got to take it a day at a time and have faith that God has it all under control no matter what may be going on. ๐Ÿ™‚ 

Fussy Nursing baby and an emotional crying toddler

Farewell July

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Farewell July

โ€‹July has officially ended,  I’d like to say YaY and that I can finally relax but not totally…yet. Though I’ll definitely be taking it easy a little, or at least I’ll try to, Haha. 

For my writing project in July I wrote 32k words (the most I’ve ever written in a month before, so that is exciting!) But it’s not done, though I will be taking a break from it for at least this month so I can hopefully edit and completely finish my short story from May (cause that’d be awesome!). If I can get it done then I’m thinking about putting it on Amazon. excitement 

With also having had a few birthdays in July and the 4th of July I think all In all it was a really great month! ๐Ÿ˜€ I’m really looking forward to this month and September! ๐Ÿ™‚

Thanks goes to my amazing husband who encouraged me as I tried to push myself to get all those words wrote! I love you sweetie! โค

Also to the other writers in my group for Camp NaNo, it was great to have y’all as writing companions this past month! 

 

Gideon is 4 years old as of two days ago. He’s growing up so fast! ๐Ÿ˜ฆ We took him to the Lake and he got a bunch of Ninja Turtle stuff which he absolutely loved! ๐Ÿ˜€ 

Daily prompt: Struggle

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Struggles of a Night Nursing Baby
9pm
Good night my child,
May we sleep well,
11pm
A snack for you,
So we can sleep more,
12am
How are you hungry?
You need to sleep,
2am
Why scream and cry?
Mommy is here,
230am
You have eaten from both sides,
Please go to sleep,
4am
Are you cold or hot?
Tired or hungry?
430am
Rocking or standing,
You still nurse while crying,
445am
You are finally back asleep,
Please sleep more than two hours.
6am
Why, my child, why?
Last night you nearly slept all night,
7am
Shh, baby sleeping still,
Let’s rest more until he wakes,
8am
Energy they have in abundant,
Coffee I need to keep up,
10am
Daytime smiles and hugs,
Out weighs the sleepless night struggle. 💖

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Insomnia thoughts

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What to talk about? … for some reason, I never really know what to write on my blog. I open the app to write a post but most the time I just stare at the bright screen not sure of the words that I should put. Knowing that everything I write and publish in here is read not only by family and friends but strangers too.
What if I offend someone? Or if something I say is understood wrong? Or my Faith gets questioned because I don’t explain something right? Or worse, I say something wrong and gives people the wrong idea not just of me and my family but of God as well? Am I sharing too much of my life? Should I pretend everything seems to be rainbows in my life just so it doesn’t seem like I’m complaining about it? Even though I know I’m truly blessed.

How does anyone ever really know what to say?

There have been so many topics I’ve wanted to tall about but haven’t for fear of being misunderstood.
I am a young mind after all what do I know? Right?
Why cause the drama?
Its probably just a single small voice in the minority group against the mighty voice of the majority group, right?
What difference will it make?

Probably….none.

But think about this… if I don’t speak up, who will? If the minority started to get quieter voice by voice there won’t be anyone to stand up against the majority, no one to try and stand up for what they think is right. And that, my dear friend, will be a sad day.

Why should I be afraid when they aren’t? They won’t even bat an eye to speak their minds, we shouldn’t either. But so many of us do….. why?

Why do we continue to let them tell us how to live? What to except or not except?
America has become a very sad country to live in.
We mourn over the 50 people killed in a shoot out yet hardly ever give a second thought to the millions of babies murdered through abortion every day.
We will imprison someone for buying or selling marihuana but we let rapists and pedophiles go free.
We support people who lie and cheat to be our leaders.
We give perverts free passes into opposite gender bathrooms just so gays know they are welcomed into either one.
We give rich raises while our own military struggle to make ends meet and still have to take a pay cut.
We want to bring in refugees while our own people struggle and are homeless on the streets.
We want to pay the person flipping the burger more than the one who saves your life.
We encourage sex, yet when a teenager gets pregnant we wonder why.
We are told to welcome other people and religions openly but ban the bible and prayer because it offends one person.
We blame objects or victimsย  for a crime instead of the criminal themself.
We ban natural things and are told to encourage chemicals in our food.
We protect animals and criminals more than we protect our own bornย  and unborn children.
We forsake God in everything we do, even though he used to be the cornerstone of our lives,  Country.
We throw prayer and bible out of schools but give it in prisons to try and help the men and women there.

Why America?
Why did we let this happen? Because we are stupid idiots that’s why! We ignore God and everything goes south from there.
Its sad.

Forgive them, for they know not what they do.

They follow blindly, like sheep to the slaughter.

I always pray for our country, but I fear we have reached a day where it is too far gone. Now I pray for us as individuals, that it won’t be too late for some of us to wake up and realize what a mess we have become. That we can try to fix what we can, starting with our own hearts.

Describing The Rain

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I looked out the window. The sky was tar-black and the large clouds were moving towards me. I heard a tapping on the window and then it became a pitter-patter. People ran for cover outside and umbrellas were opened as the clouds spat out their beads of water. Puddles began plinking as the rainfall became heavier. The roofs of the cars danced with spray and I could hear the murmuring of the rain through the window. It sounded like the buzzingโ€ฆ

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Remember the Fallen

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Blasts ring,
Fear surges,
Bullets fly,
Courage strengthens,
A muted prayer,
From dirt covered lips,
Pain consumes,
Families remembered,
Warm blood flows,
Darkness invades,
Their Sacrifice,
For our Freedom.

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Tears fall,
Gun blasts,
Black dress,
Sadness pierces,
A loved one lost,
Red rose placed,
A price paid,
Salute for the lost,
Red White and Blue,
A Folded flag,
Forever cherished,
Never forgotten.

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(Both poems were wrote by me)

I am Blessed!

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Today was Calian’s 1st birthday! O.O #bittersweet :’) He has grown so much, it’s ridiculous! ๐Ÿ˜› He walks now, hardly ever crawls anymore ๐Ÿ˜ฅ has 8 (EIGHT) teeth and loves music and dancing! ๐Ÿ˜€
It feels like I blinked and BAM  he’s no longer my little baby anymore.  When he was born he was 7lbs and 21in long, now he’s somewhere around 20lbs and probably 30in long (I’ll know for sure at his next appointment).
So anyways, for his birthday we went to the Caldwell Zoo. And while Gideon LOVED the turtles, Calian kept trying to walk to the penguins ๐Ÿ™‚ and before we left we bought him a small stuffed penguin that he immediately gave a kiss too. โค
It was technically supposed to rain all day but thankfully we were blessed with a nice day (it was hot, but still nice enough to be out). ๐Ÿ™‚
As I went through my day (yesterday and today) I couldn't help but think how blessed and lucky I am to not only have Calian but Gideon too. After having Gideon I had two miscarriages, both of which hit me hard. I know there are women out there who have a way more harder time with pregnancy and getting pregnant then I do, but when you first start trying to having kids you (or at least I didn't) don't think you could be one of the few out of all the women out there. When pregnant with Calian I was always on edge and worrying that something may happen, that I could lose another one. During my first trimester I wouldn't let myself get to hopeful or attached at first because I was scared it'd hurt more if something did happen.  But nothing did, sure it was a harder pregnancy (and delivery)  than what I had with Gideon but I have him still today and I wouldn't change that for anything.  โค And it's helped me to really cherish every day I have with my family no matter how it goes, cause each day is a gift that God has given us. ๐Ÿ™‚ โค

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Birthday boy walking at the zoo

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Right before I headed to the hospital

May the fourth be with you

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May the fourth be with you

Well it’s May, ย (May the fourth be with you ๐Ÿ˜‰ haha) my youngest turns a year at the end of the month. ๐Ÿ˜• Its kinda giving me a bittersweet feeling. He’s growing up so fast, he’sย got almost all 8 (4bottom and 4top) teeth in, he’s been walking assisted for a couple months or so now, and this past week he’s been trying to walk unassisted. Gideon was barely walking assisted when he turned a year, but I guess with having a bigger brother Calian strives to do more quicker. Gideon is loving having someone to play with (and to pick on), though I’m still trying to teach him he has to still be gentle until his brother gets older. I love watching them together, Calian loves to follow his brother while Gideon loves to chase him, they both laugh, it’s adorable, though also very loud, haha. Coffee has definitely been my life saver and fuel lately, the coffee machine that I got from my in laws when Mr.K and I got married is still working great and hasn’t let me down. ๐Ÿ˜€

We’ve had a lot of flooding and ย tornadoes here in Texas this Spring and last Fall, our yard has become a moat a few times during the heavy rains. ๐Ÿ˜› Even though I’m enjoying the rain and all I can’t wait for some sun! I’m going to be buying some ant killer since our yard is being taken over, so I can actually let the boys out to play without having to worry about them getting covered in ants. We could all really use the sun, I also miss the tan I use to have before apartment life.

Next month we are going on a kayak trip with some friends, I can’t wait! It’ll be up at beavers bend in Oklahoma. Hopefully the weather will be extra nice and warm. Its been two years since our last trip, ย we’ve been trying to go once a year but last year two of us moms were 8+months pregnant or just had a baby so we figured we’d skip it. It’ll be an 11mile trip down river so it’ll be almost a whole day trip (last time we got done 2 or hours ย early, we’ll see how we do this year).ย 

I’m still working on my photography ย and actually have a few pictures for sale on a couple photo stock websites. (If you wanna check them out I’m on istock and fotolia) I don’t got a lot of pictures up but I’m working on it and still trying to get the hang of it, they are mainly moon, sunset and scenery pictures for now, but I enjoying taking them so guess that’s good. ๐Ÿ™‚ I also got my own photography page on Facebook, N.K Photography, if you want to check out more of my pictures there. ๐Ÿ™‚

I’m still working on my writing, haven’t done a lot but I do what o can during nap time. ๐Ÿ™‚ ย I’ve got a few stories going, all of which are different from the other. I’ve got one set in a fantasy kind of land, another is what some people call steam-punk mixed with some sci-fi, another is modern day with FBI, and the other is set in a modern small town. I’m hoping to at least get one of these finished soon but we’ll see what happens. ๐Ÿ˜› ๐Ÿ™‚ ย 

 

 

Happy New Year! 2016

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15 minutes until 2016 (central standard time) ๐Ÿ˜€ I’m hoping and praying everyone is staying safe and having a wonderful night!

I was finally able to get the boys asleep an hour ago so it’s my turn to it the hay. 
Its been a wonderful year, Yahweh truly blessed me and our family. I can not wait to see what this coming year has in store for us! ๐Ÿ™‚
Since Mr. K is working tonight we will be staying up until midnight together tomorrow night (hopefully, if we can last that long. As it is I can barely keep my eyes open tonight, we’ll see how tomorrow is).
I don’t really have any resolutions this time….mostly cause I hardly do them…but I just pray we follow God’s will and that we cherish each day. โค

Night y'all!

Too Early

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Yesterday the boys slept in until almost 11, it was wonderful, and it felt great to get a little extra sleep. But sadly they both went to bed early last night which meant that they’d be up early today. Like before 8am early -_- honestly I don’t know how I use to get up this early when I was younger. I didn’t even go to bed that late last night either, 11-1130. Is this what it feels like to get old? If so,I really don’t like it. ๐Ÿ˜›
Calian is almost 7 months, I’ve been kinda in denial that my baby is growing so much, that I haven’t totally started him on solids yet. He’s had some bananas and apples and mashed potatoes but that’s about it. He’s still breastfeeding great which I’m proud of. With Gideon I had dried up on one side at 4 months and by 6 months the other side was dried up as well  and I had to switch him to formula, so it makes me happy that I’m still able to nurse Calian at 7 months. ๐Ÿ™‚ Matt thinks I’m crazy to take pride in that but I know other nursing moms would understand. ๐Ÿ™‚
I got to visit my parents last weekend, my youngest brother and his new wife also got to come visit and I got to see my younger sister and my other sister in law as well! ๐Ÿ˜€ It was great seeing them all again! It had been at least 2 months since I saw everyone. O.O Now just need to plan to see my older sister and my other brother ๐Ÿ˜› ๐Ÿ™‚
While we were up there, we went to watch the new Star Wars. It was awesome! ๐Ÿ˜€ And sad. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ I wasn’t big into star wars until watching Dr Who, but I’m very happy they were able to bring the original cast in for this movie. ๐Ÿ™‚