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Daily prompt: Empty


I had love,
Happiness could’ve been ours,
You pretended and lied,
Covering a hatred you held,
Now your secret is out,
You can no longer hide,
My death you seek,
Cold betrayal I feel,
I try to cover the pain,
As you take me away,
Leaving me to rot,
Wondering how I did not see,
Knowing there’s little hope left,
You killed my friend,
I am alone,
Nothing but emptiness as company.

N.K 6/2016



Marriage advice-Gerald Rogers


Us women could even use this advice also, tho I know some men aren’t into some of the ‘soft/romantic’ stuff but we gotta remember to always cherish our husband’s and let them know how much they mean to us too. Do things with them that they enjoying doin, 🙂 Show them support (even if an idea sounds like trouble, try it anyway), encourage them. After all they do provide and work hard for us 🙂
Yes I know, probably not all men out there deserve this, but just think not all women out there deserve the things this man says we should get either. But we still need to try and build our man up, even if its the furthest thing from our mind in that moment, that’s when it matters the most.



Obviously, I’m not a relationship expert. But there’s something about my divorce being finalized this week that gives me perspective of things I wish I would have done different… After losing a woman that I loved, and a marriage of almost 16 years, here’s the advice I wish I would have had…

1) Never stop courting. Never stop dating. NEVER EVER take that woman for granted. When you asked her to marry you, you promised to be that man that would OWN HER HEART and to fiercely protect it. This is the most important and sacred treasure you will ever be entrusted with. SHE CHOSE YOU. Never forget that, and NEVER GET LAZY in your love.

2) PROTECT YOUR OWN HEART. Just as you committed to being the protector of her heart, you must guard your own with the same vigilance. Love yourself fully, love the world openly, but there is a special place in your heart where no one must enter except for your wife. Keep that space always ready to receive her and invite her in, and refuse to let anyone or anything else enter there.

3) FALL IN LOVE OVER and OVER and OVER again. You will constantly change. You’re not the same people you were when you got married, and in five years you will not be the same person you are today. Change will come, and in that you have to re-choose each other everyday. SHE DOESN’T HAVE TO STAY WITH YOU, and if you don’t take care of her heart, she may give that heart to someone else or seal you out completely, and you may never be able to get it back. Always fight to win her love just as you did when you were courting her.

4) ALWAYS SEE THE BEST in her. Focus only on what you love. What you focus on will expand. If you focus on what bugs you, all you will see is reasons to be bugged. If you focus on what you love, you can’t help but be consumed by love. Focus to the point where you can no longer see anything but love, and you know without a doubt that you are the luckiest man on earth to be have this woman as your wife.

5) IT’S NOT YOUR JOB TO CHANGE OR FIX HER… your job is to love her as she is with no expectation of her ever changing. And if she changes, love what she becomes, whether it’s what you wanted or not.

6) TAKE FULL ACCOUNTABILITY for your own emotions: It’s not your wife’s job to make you happy, and she CAN’T make you sad. You are responsible for finding your own happiness, and through that your joy will spill over into your relationship and your love.

7) NEVER BLAME your wife If YOU get frustrated or angry at her, it is only because it is triggering something inside of YOU. They are YOUR emotions, and your responsibility. When you feel those feelings take time to get present and to look within and understand what it is inside of YOU that is asking to be healed. You were attracted to this woman because she was the person best suited to trigger all of your childhood wounds in the most painful way so that you could heal them… when you heal yourself, you will no longer be triggered by her, and you will wonder why you ever were.

8) Allow your woman to JUST BE. When she’s sad or upset, it’s not your job to fix it, it’s your job to HOLD HER and let her know it’s ok. Let her know that you hear her, and that she’s important and that you are that pillar on which she can always lean. The feminine spirit is about change and emotion and like a storm her emotions will roll in and out, and as you remain strong and unjudging she will trust you and open her soul to you… DON’T RUN-AWAY WHEN SHE’S UPSET. Stand present and strong and let her know you aren’t going anywhere. Listen to what she is really saying behind the words and emotion.

9) BE SILLY… don’t take yourself so damn seriously. Laugh. And make her laugh. Laughter makes everything else easier.

10) FILL HER SOUL EVERYDAY… learn her love languages and the specific ways that she feels important and validated and CHERISHED. Ask her to create a list of 10 THINGS that make her feel loved and memorize those things and make it a priority everyday to make her feel like a queen.

11) BE PRESENT. Give her not only your time, but your focus, your attention and your soul. Do whatever it takes to clear your head so that when you are with her you are fully WITH HER. Treat her as you would your most valuable client. She is.

12) BE WILLING TO TAKE HER SEXUALLY, to carry her away in the power of your masculine presence, to consume her and devour her with your strength, and to penetrate her to the deepest levels of her soul. Let her melt into her feminine softness as she knows she can trust you fully.

13) DON’T BE AN IDIOT…. And don’t be afraid of being one either. You will make mistakes and so will she. Try not to make too big of mistakes, and learn from the ones you do make. You’re not supposed to be perfect, just try to not be too stupid.

14) GIVE HER SPACE… The woman is so good at giving and giving, and sometimes she will need to be reminded to take time to nurture herself. Sometimes she will need to fly from your branches to go and find what feeds her soul, and if you give her that space she will come back with new songs to sing…. (okay, getting a little too poetic here, but you get the point. Tell her to take time for herself, ESPECIALLY after you have kids. She needs that space to renew and get re-centered, and to find herself after she gets lost in serving you, the kids and the world.)

15) BE VULNERABLE… you don’t have to have it all together. Be willing to share your fears and feelings, and quick to acknowledge your mistakes.

16) BE FULLY TRANSPARENT. If you want to have trust you must be willing to share EVERYTHING… Especially those things you don’t want to share. It takes courage to fully love, to fully open your heart and let her in when you don’t know i she will like what she finds… Part of that courage is allowing her to love you completely, your darkness as well as your light. DROP THE MASK… If you feel like you need to wear a mask around her, and show up perfect all the time, you will never experience the full dimension of what love can be.

17) NEVER STOP GROWING TOGETHER… The stagnant pond breeds malaria, the flowing stream is always fresh and cool. Atrophy is the natural process when you stop working a muscle, just as it is if you stop working on your relationship. Find common goals, dreams and visions to work towards.

18) DON’T WORRY ABOUT MONEY. Money is a game, find ways to work together as a team to win it. It never helps when teammates fight. Figure out ways to leverage both persons strength to win.

19) FORGIVE IMMEDIATELY and focus on the future rather than carrying weight from the past. Don’t let your history hold you hostage. Holding onto past mistakes that either you or she makes, is like a heavy anchor to your marriage and will hold you back. FORGIVENESS IS FREEDOM. Cut the anchor loose and always choose love.

20) ALWAYS CHOOSE LOVE. ALWAYS CHOOSE LOVE. ALWAYS CHOOSE LOVE. In the end, this is the only advice you need. If this is the guiding principle through which all your choices is governed, there is nothing that will threaten the happiness of your marriage. Love will always endure.

In the end MARRIAGE isn’t about Happily ever after. It’s about work. And a commitment to grow together and a willingness to continually invest in creating something that can endure eternity. Through that work, the happiness will come.

Marriage is life, and it will bring ups and downs. Embracing all of the cycles and learning to learn from and love each experience will bring the strength and perspective to keep building, one brick at a time.

These are lessons I learned the hard way. These are lessons I learned too late.

But these are lessons I am learning and committed in carrying forward. Truth is, I LOVED being married, and in time, I will get married again, and when I do, I will build it with a foundation that will endure any storm and any amount of time.

If you are reading this and find wisdom in my pain, share it those those young husbands whose hearts are still full of hope, and with those couples you may know who may have forgotten how to love. One of those men may be like I was, and in these hard earned lessons perhaps something will awaken in him and he will learn to be the man his lady has been waiting for.

The woman that told him ‘I do’, and trusted her life with him, has been waiting for this man to step up.

If you are reading this and your marriage isn’t what you want it to be, take 100% responsibility for YOUR PART in marriage, regardless of where your spouse is at, and commit to applying these lessons while there is time.

MEN- THIS IS YOUR CHARGE : Commit to being an EPIC LOVER. There is no greater challenge, and no greater prize. Your woman deserves that from you.

Be the type of husband your wife can’t help but brag about.
-Gerold Rogers

Daily prompt: Smitten/100 Posts Published


This will be my 100th Post to post here on my blog. 😀

I was wanting to do something special but…I’m having a hard time thinking of something to do/post. :-/

Though since it is Valentines I will like to give a little Shout out to My Amazing Husband:

Babe, you’re the best husband in the world! I thank Yahweh everyday for bring you into my life; marrying you was one of the best things that’s happened in my life. 😀 I don’t know where I’d be without. You are a hard worker and good provider for both Gideon and I; and it warms my heart every time I see you with Gideon. ❤ He loves his Daddy very much (Da-Da is still one of his favorite words to say through out the day)! Thanks for everything you do and for being such a Godly man. 🙂 I LOVE YOU with ALL of my Heart!!! ❤ 

Today’s Daily Prompt asks poets to show them SMITTEN…So here’s a Smitten/Love poem.

At first Glance
As you stepped into the room my heart thundered,
does he have a girlfriend? I wondered,
Your voice rang through my ears,
I had no more fears,
You smiled and my heart melted,
Hand in hand we danced, my spirits lifted,
You smitten-ed me with your charm,
Could I trust my heart? my brain alarmed,
Your brown eyes looked at me,
and right then I could see,
From my first glance at you,
I knew there’d be no others but  you.
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I’m Letting My Wife Go

I’m Letting My Wife Go

Seth Adam Smith

I’m sure it may come as a shock to some people, but I let my wife go. It was one of the hardest things I’ve had to do, but it was the right thing for the both of us.

Kim and Seth WeddingNo, we’re not getting a divorce and no, we’re not separating. Truth be told, the practice of “letting go” has actually brought us closer together. But in order to understand what I mean by “letting go,” you must first understand that Kim and I are two very different people.

In fact, the differences between us were Kim’s primary concern with us getting married. “Seth, a fish may love a bird,” she said. “But where would they live?”

I smiled at the comparison because it’s fairly accurate.

Kim and I are incredibly different people. She’s the oldest in her family; I’m the youngest in mine. She’s very responsible; I’m…very much not. She…

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I think this year will be going by just as fast as last year did. sigh First it was New Years, I blink and it’s already February! Geez!!

The month of Valentines…. Honestly I think any or almost every day of the year should be like Valentines. We shouldn’t just set aside one day to tell our special someone they mean the world to us or have that the only time we buy them something nice and sweet, we should tell them that everyday how much they mean to us, and surprise them with a gift every so often to show them just how special they really are. Don’t ya think?

Anyways…. Not much happened in January, it was a pretty good month, and I can’t wait to find out what else this year has in store for my Family and I. 😀

My writing isn’t going as well as I had hoped it would though, so far. It’s like my mind is trying to give me writer’s block, but I’m fighting it so hopefully soon I’ll have words flying off the keyboard. 😉 Though I am working on at least 3 stories at the same time, plus I keep getting new ideas for different books that float through my head. I must say that, sometimes it gets a little confusing.

Gideon is still growing like a weed…today he didn’t want to take a nap so I just let him play in his room until he finally fell asleep around 4pm. I just hope he doesn’t sleep too much where he won’t fall asleep tonight. 😛

Due to having insomnia most nights, I’ve been thinking and trying to pick up some yoga. The few times I’ve done it I slept really good that night. But I looked into some of the stuff for it at Walmart, and it can get pricey! So for now I’m just sticking to the Yoga I have on our Wii Fit. 😛

Well got to head out..gotta finish cleaning before Mr. K gets home, and while the baby is still sleeping. 😉

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My Life Through Music


So last night while driving home from my In-laws, Mr. K and I were listening to music and I came up with a pretty cool Idea for a blog post- using different songs tell about (the) different phases/events of my life.

Age 0-8 – Are you Washed in the Blood?, Blessed Assurance, and Build Your Kingdom here

My mom said that when I was a baby my Favorite song that I liked her to sing was Blessed Assurance, to this day it is still one of my favorite songs. At Age 7 I got saved hence Are you Washed in the Blood? And for Build Your Kingdom Here, from as early as I could remember until we started traveling around the USA (almost age 8) my family and I would get together with friends and go Street preaching just about anywhere in Portland, OR (Parades, Abortion Mills, Festivals, the Square,  Sea Side, ect.)

Age 7-10- Good life

When I was 7 y/o that was when my family first moved away from Portland from then until I was 10 we moved wherever my Dad’s job took him-Alabama, Kansas, Wyoming, Montana, back to Oregon, until we finally settled in Missouri. We hardly stayed in one place longer then 3 months. Don’t get me wrong I loved the travel! Though I did miss not having any friends. Good Life is the best song that I found that most resembles my life on the road I think. 🙂

Age 13-17  – Get off of My Back

Through out most of my teen years, I felt like I was always being judged or having to be someone I wasn’t that I couldn’t be the person that I wanted to be, so this Song pretty much resembles my thoughts/attitude during that time.

Age 15- Runaway-Love and Theft

When I was 15 I ran away from home, I was just lost and didn’t know what to do, and I just wanted to get away. Though I didn’t get every far before my dad came and found me.

Age 18-19-Let it Go, God Gave Me You, and SoulMate

18 is when I got married, and well..these songs kinda say how I felt. I felt like I could myself with my husband hence Let It Go, and I was completely in love with him, like I had found my Soul-Mate and I still feel that way. 🙂 ❤ I Love You Sweetie!! (Another song that resembles how I felt/feel is God Gave Me You

Age 20-Every Good Thing-The Afters

As for how my life is going right now, This song pretty much sums it all up! 😀

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Daily Prompt: The Luckiest People


Who was the first person you encountered today? Write about him or her.

Well, since it’s a weekend that Mr. K has to work, so the first person that I encountered today was him, when he got up sometime around 5am for work.

Lets see, what can I say about him??

Well, if you’ve read my first post (My Story) then you know how we met, in another post (Will you marry Me?) you’ll know how he purposed, and in Daily Prompt: My Number One you’ll read how much he means to me. ❤ And well if you’ve read some of my other posts I’ve mentioned him quite a few times and posted some pics of him too, after all he is my Husband and he’s My World!

But what can I say to tell you about him that I haven’t already said??

He works at the Sheriff’s Dpt (btw, he looks AMAZING in his uniform 😉 haha); he works so hard to provide for his family, I don’t know where we’d be with out him. And even though I can be a pain and crazy at times, I know he still loves me. 🙂 He can be stubborn sometimes but hey, who isn’t? He’s a gentleman (that’s one of the first things about him that made me fall in love with him), He’s always trying to be a better and more Godly husband, Gideon loves it when his Daddy reads to him from his Baby Bible, ❤ and even though he’s not big on the moushy romantic stuff he still has his moments and his own ways of showing me how much he cares. He stands up for and protects me (and Gideon), and he’s always trying to make sure I stay safe. 🙂 Though he doesn’t do it often, he can cook and he’s good at it too!

Another thing about him is…He is any Wonderful Daddy! Gideon loves him so much, Dada is the word he says the most. ❤ I just love watching the two of them together!

^^just about sums it up^^

Marriage Isn’t For You


“And the two shall become one flesh.”


Even from the beginning God made it that when you get married that, it’s no longer suppose to be just two separate hearts anymore, but one.

Ephesians 5

28 So ought men to love their wives as their own bodies. He that loves his wife loves himself.


29 For no man ever yet hated his own flesh; but nourishes and cherishes it, even as the Lord the church:


Same goes for us Wives, we need to love our husbands as ourselves.

Seth Adam Smith

Having been married only a year and a half, I’ve recently come to the conclusion that marriage isn’t for me.

Now before you start making assumptions, keep reading.

I met my wife in high school when we were 15 years old. We were friends for ten years until…until we decided no longer wanted to be just friends. 🙂 I strongly recommend that best friends fall in love. Good times will be had by all.

Nevertheless, falling in love with my best friend did not prevent me from having certain fears and anxieties about getting married. The nearer Kim and I approached the decision to marry, the more I was filled with a paralyzing fear. Was I ready? Was I making the right choice? Was Kim the right person to marry? Would she make me happy?

Then, one fateful night, I shared these thoughts and concerns with my dad.

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Daily Prompt: My Number One


“Who is the most important person in your life? Describe that person in as great a detail as you can muster and most importantly, tell us why you cherish this person.”

As far as who’s #1 in my Life, its my Heavenly Father, Yahweh/Yahshua! I’ve learned that when I start putting him second in my life everything seems to start to go a little crazy, or I start stressing and worrying about things that I really don’t need to be worrying about, because I know that He’s got it all under control and He’ll never give me more then I can handle. Yahweh sent his son Yahshua to die on a cross for me, so that I can live and can spend Eternal life with Him if I choose to Repent from my sins and follow Him in His ways. He made the Heavens and the Earth, and everything around us (that isn’t man-made), we are created in His image. And in His Bible He warns us what could happen if we don’t listen to Him; honestly I’d be dumb if I didn’t turn my life over to Him and follow Him. He’s done so much for me, He’s given me a wonderful Family, Husband, Son, Friends, a roof over my head, food to eat, water to drink, and He let me wake u alive and breathing this morning.  😀


  Now as for who’s the most important ‘Person’ in my Life, that’d be my husband. 😀 Not only is he my husband but he’s my Best BEST friend, Lover, Partner in …well not really crime but we do get a little mischievous sometimes, he’s gotten me through some hard times and some fun times. We’ve had some ups and downs but we’ve always been able to get through it, whatever it is.  To be honest there’s just no words that I can use to describe how much he means to me, I mean just thought of maybe someday losing him makes my heart hurt. He’s my better half, the one who completes me. ❤ I honestly don’t know where I’d be today if I hadn’t met and married him; I am just so blessed to have him in my life, I’m honored and lucky to be his wife. 🙂 No matter where Yahweh takes us in life he’ll always be one of the most important part of/person in my life. I’ll always Cherish him. ❤ 


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Daily Prompt: Random Act of Kindness


Tell us about the time when you performed a secret random act of kindness — where the recipient of your kindness never found out about your good deed. How did the deed go down?

Photographers, artists, poets: show us SECRET.”

Okay to be honest, I don’t know if any of my ‘Acts of Kindness’ were ever kept a secret from the recipient, and even if I did try to keep it a Secret from them, they probably still found out either from a friend or my family (sometimes its very hard to keep a secret with close friends). So today I’ve decided to do poems instead. Though the first one has nothing to do with kindness.

Know my Secret

Shh, they’ll hear,

Hearts gripped with fear,

Sweat beading at the brow,

They had to get out, but how?

Who’s idea was this?

Stop complaining, he hiss’d.

Keys clanked on wood,

They fell right where they should,

He grabbed them off the ground,

Glancing around,

Door swung open,

He counted to ten,

He kept this secret to long,

 He had enough of being treated wrong,

It was his turn,

Captain had to burn,

What’s going on?

I’m no longer your pawn.

It’s my secret you see,

This here is a Mutiny!

By: Natalie K 12/20/13

Secret Love

I’ve seen you aroun’,

You act happy on the outside,

But I know on the inside you feel down,

You can’t hide,

You don’t notice me,

Even though I’ve made you smile,

I like you don’t you see,

You leave your feelings in a pile,

Remember when you had nothing,

You thought you had no friends,

But then you got something,

You thought you’d just put it all to an end,

Then with one act of kindness you felt love,

You thought it was another,

When it is I who am sent for you from above,

Maybe be someday you’ll know its me and we’ll be together.

By: Natalie K. 12/20/13