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I am Blessed!

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Today was Calian’s 1st birthday! O.O #bittersweet :’) He has grown so much, it’s ridiculous! 😛 He walks now, hardly ever crawls anymore 😥 has 8 (EIGHT) teeth and loves music and dancing! 😀
It feels like I blinked and BAM  he’s no longer my little baby anymore.  When he was born he was 7lbs and 21in long, now he’s somewhere around 20lbs and probably 30in long (I’ll know for sure at his next appointment).
So anyways, for his birthday we went to the Caldwell Zoo. And while Gideon LOVED the turtles, Calian kept trying to walk to the penguins 🙂 and before we left we bought him a small stuffed penguin that he immediately gave a kiss too. ❤
It was technically supposed to rain all day but thankfully we were blessed with a nice day (it was hot, but still nice enough to be out). 🙂
As I went through my day (yesterday and today) I couldn't help but think how blessed and lucky I am to not only have Calian but Gideon too. After having Gideon I had two miscarriages, both of which hit me hard. I know there are women out there who have a way more harder time with pregnancy and getting pregnant then I do, but when you first start trying to having kids you (or at least I didn't) don't think you could be one of the few out of all the women out there. When pregnant with Calian I was always on edge and worrying that something may happen, that I could lose another one. During my first trimester I wouldn't let myself get to hopeful or attached at first because I was scared it'd hurt more if something did happen.  But nothing did, sure it was a harder pregnancy (and delivery)  than what I had with Gideon but I have him still today and I wouldn't change that for anything.  ❤ And it's helped me to really cherish every day I have with my family no matter how it goes, cause each day is a gift that God has given us. 🙂 ❤

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Birthday boy walking at the zoo

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Right before I headed to the hospital